It seems as though the only time I actually update LJ anymore is when I'm sitting in school - but for once I'm in french class and not science. Anyway, I'm listening to some Jason Mraz. I don't really have anything to say, other than I'm pretty excited for the weekend. Nothing special is planned, I just have the feeling it's going to be a good one.

HOLY FUCKING TITS. Drumfest was insanely amazing - I regret leaving early the first day, because now I'd go back there in a heartbeat. Seriously, I'll be counting the days until next year, I have no doubt that it can only get better. Oh, and thank you lots and lots Joshuay, I appreciate you taking me with you.

I'm insaneeeely excited for the summer. I think plans will finally fall into place and everything is getting to be a whole lot better. Thomas actually gives really good advice, even if it took months of thinking things out and being impatient. Time seems to go pretty fast, though. I mean, it's almost summer already. That's crazy. It seems like it was only yesterday that the last school year ended and I started to hang out with Josh.

This summer though, once again, nothing is set in stone - and it's pretty much just us going with the flow. You know? Yay rhymes. Speaking of - I've been writing a lot again lately, possibly, I'll post some of my newer stuff. That would be refreshing for anyone who actually reads this crap.

Also the shit really hit the fucking fan over the last week - but I'm not stressed out, and that's great. I'm really super happy-go-lucky lately, and it's not so bad. Oh, and I made a new friend who seems to potentially be a really good friend. Marcus, you're fabulous!

Jason Mraz and Bright Eyes are currently my favorite singers & songwriters in the entire world. I mean it. Their music is totally amazing, and it makes me like, so happy. So, I thank Julia Nunes for covering a Bright Eyes song a while back, because the chances are if you didn't, I probably wouldn't have heard of Bright Eyes for a really long time.. and then maybe I wouldn't be in such a good mood all the time. That wouldn't be good for anyone.

Oh, you know what pisses me off? Like a day or two ago ArchMC2012 posted on youtube about the whole gay rights movement, and fighting for the GLBT community to be accepted - and she got a lot of negative feedback. That pissed me off, I don't understand why it's so hard for people to accept that everyone is born differently and it could have easily been them born that way. Some people like to argue that it has nothing to do with how you're born, and that you just chose to be the way you are.

Yeah, that's fucking bullshit. I'm pretty sure nobody chooses to be made fun of, to be discriminated against, and to have their life turned upside down. There is no contrlling it, say what you want, I suppose. I'm tired of immature fucking idiots thinking they know absolutely everything there is to know, and thinking that they're always right. It's just insane and stupid. If it's that hard to be accepting, how the fuck do you manage to even have friends?

ArchMC2012 posted a VIDEO on youtube, as I said, a video. People did not respond with videos though, they had to hide behind the safety of their computer and bitch at her through text - that's not fucking cool. If you're going to bitch at her, you could at least get the guts to show your face. But then again you probably know that you'll get hated on, too.

Anyway, I'm done my little rant for today, I really should post more. I have to pee. I'm hungry. I'm also tired, and my mother went on a rage this morning. She woke me up from my really weird dream, though.. yeah I have to include this but if you're not interested stop reading.. NOW.

Okay okay, in my dream I was in some kind of mall with games and stuff, and Luke and I decided we were going to play DDR, which apparently is inside of this imaginary dream school. So we're playing DDR and don't ask me why but we start dirty dancing and getting really close to eachother, and we get yelled at by some teachers. Anyway, we just like continue on with our lovely dream day of chilling and what not and then Vanessa calls dream Luke and rages at us, it was a really annoying dream considering nothing in my life would ever ever ever play out that way.

NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN. NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER. GOODBYE. -pecks out eyes with beak-
Sorry, had an over dramatic moment there, my apologies. ;) .. Hey, that kinda makes me wanna go to Drama Queen and order some Drama Queen Supreme, my favorite? Yanno how I roll.

ANYWAY, I love you. Goodbye. <3

I can't help but blame myself because we're both to blame.


The seasone finale of Fringe was last night, and after live chatting with everyone and hearing some theories - I figured I should probably go buy season one on DVD & watch it obsessively.. Also, is there an alter walter or is he dead too? And I don't care if Mr. Jones was with the ZFT, he was amazing - maybe MD can piece him back together? D: I'm sure they could..

Anyway until Fringe comes back with a new season, yes it was picked up for a second season, I shall find another show to watch - Reaper is coming to an end for this season as well.. for some reason I don't think it's popular enough to return for another season, though. The same goes for Dolhouse, nobody really watches it anyway.

With the amount of viewers Fringe has been getting, HOPEFULLY American Ugly won't be cutting into it's time next season, there's no good reason for it to start at like 10:06.

Anyway enough with television. ;o Latelllly I've been thinking about some musical projects for the summer, but I'm not really sure in which direction I'll be going, there's multiple options, and I'd love to do something with each. For now though, I'll just stick to lyric writing and waiting patiently for a ukulele, writing my own music is probably a good idea. Hm, so yeah.

The summer is coming up and my plans keep changing, as per usual, my mom can't make up her mind - and knowing her it's going to be a last minute decision. Either way there's something to look forward to, and it involves leaving this town. Who's going to look after Mr. Jones when I leave? Nobody's going to be jumping at the chance to look after a piglet for a week. I'll figure it out!

There's a show on Friday so I suppose that's pretty great, and Joshuay and I shall chill afterwards, and then I should probably get some sleep because I haven't been getting much lately - and the night after I predict I won't be getting much sleep - because I AM having my 3 o'clock in the morning picnic, and I don't care if I have to carry it out by myself. Anyway, I'm sure my stalkers will join me.. ;\

It's a long weekend which is pretty fab, because that means I get to hang out with Jerr and whoever else asked me, sorry I'm forgetful.

On a side note lately I've been feeling rather indifferent and , actually, feeling unfeeling? I don't know if that makes sense, but it makes sense to me. I've been sporting zero emotion, almost, for two or three days straight and it's actually rather enjoyable. :) 

 

I wouldn't be expecting me to post any new videos on youtube. But something amazingly awesome has happened.. LIVELAVALIVE (mmitchelldaviss) has finally posted a new video -but it's very artsy so I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of people don't like it. Corporalcadet posted a new video as well, also artsy, but cute.

Alrighty I'm done with blogging, chimo!<3
.. totally bringing that back from Naturally Sadie.

Who was the last person you kissed?
Jeremy.

Did anyone See you kiss this person?
No.

If so , who seen it?
Nobody.

Do you date this person?
No.

Would you date this person?
Hm.. possibly. I'm undecided.

Do you have feelings for him?
Somewhat.

Does he have feelings for you?
No idea.

How did this kiss happen?
I dunno, but it was cute.

Do you Like School?
I don't.

Do you like to dance?
Sometimes.

Are you scared to ask someone out?
Usually no.

Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
No.

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
Yeah, I stapled my finger. :(

Are your friends mostly Guys or Girls?
Guys lately.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
  Two.

Have you ever broken/fractured a bone?
Fractured.

Do u have any piercings?
No.

Do you wear braces?
No.

Do you consider yourself a good listener?
Sometimes.

Can you swim?
Barely.

Do you sing in the shower?
Yeah.

Favorite place to be:
I don't know.

What's the best feeling in the world?
Love.

What is the worst feeing in the world?
Heartbreak.

BIGGEST GIRL SURVEY EVER, don't be shy, fill it all out -

1. Do you wear your bra to bed?
No.

2 & 3 - Are gone.

4. Do you enjoy drama?
Not really.

5. Are you a girly girl?
Not really..

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
Josh ?

7. Small or large purses?
Large.

8. Are you short ?
Apparently.

9. Do you like someone?
I do. :) 

10. Are you a virgin?
Yes.

11 When will you next have sex?
 I don't know..

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
I can be, but usually, I try not to be.

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
No.

14. Are you double jointed?
Nope.

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
Usually.

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
Not really. ;o

19. How many guys will read this just because of the subject?
I dunno..

[ ] I do wear make up.
[x] have cried in a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I sometimes get jealous.
[x]I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I like rap.
[x] I like techno.
[x] I like country
[ ]I carry a purse
[x] I’d be lost without my computer.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[ ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[x] Guys are confusing.
[x] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[x] My friends are the best.
[ ] I have piercings / tattoos.

1. What color is your bra that your wearing?
Not wearing one..

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Whatever. D: 

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
No.

Do you have a best friend ?
Yes.

have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes.

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
No.

8. Do you like your life?
I do.

9. Has a friend ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
I don't think so.. a bitch would be sorry. ;\

11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
Yes.

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Both.

14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Yeah.

15. What are your biggest fears?
Throw up, circus rides & not finding love again.

damn.

18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater"?
No.

19. Have you ever had a good feeling about someone?
Yes.

20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yeah.

21. Are you currently missing someone?
Jeremy. :( 

22. Is it cute when a guy calls/ texts you in the morning just to say good morning and they love you?
Yes, it's amazing..

24. Do you like relationships?
I do.

cowboy or gangster?
Neither.

preppy or punk?
Punk.

sweet or sexy?
Sweet and sexy. ;o

contact or glasses?
Glasses.


QUESTIONS

Eyeliner or Mascara?
Eyeliner.

Pumps or flats?
Flats.

Skirts or pants?
Pants.

Socks or leggings?
Socks.

Hoodies or jackets?
Hoodies.

Heels or sneakers?
Sneakers.

Straight or curly hair?
Straight.

Hoop or dangling earrings?
Neither.

White or black?
Depends.

Diet or regular sodas?
Regular.

Pearls or diamonds?
Diamonds.

Friends or family?
Friends.

Lip gloss or lip stick?
Lip gloss.

Manicure or pedicures?
Manicure.

tank tops or beaters?
Um.

Sunglasses or purses?
Sunglasses.

*IN A GUY...

Funny or Serious?
Both.

Cute or Hot?
Cute.

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
Either.

Now the words are flowing, I thought they would end. They're not
coming from my sorrow, but rather from my head. There's something in
a smile, a warmth in a word - given and spoken by you, both I've taken and heard.

I don't know if it's confusion or a mistake of the heart - but when you're living in the
moment any little spark's a start. Your lips and mine aren't strangers, not now -
but we're on the fence and I'm wondering how we'll turn out.

Not a clue of what you want, where you'll go, or what you'll do, but I know I like life
a lot better with you. The words we've exchanged are just those of two lives,
oh tell me there's a reason for the way I must try.

I've probably lost it, no photographs, just words, and a little moment in history that
only we observed.

It slips and it falls but no way can it break,
it gets cracked and used - but it's shine never dulls.
I need it out in the light, in the warmth of your life,
thawing ice and making steam.

I want to let it grow, let it climb, let it take it's course,
but by planning it out I just can't find it's source. I want it,
I can't have it - it's so out of reach.

Oh I'm sure happpy is somewhere within it,
sealed so tightly anyone could miss it. I will never get it,
it will never be let out - not for me, but for her, that's what
rejection is about.

Is it too soon to speak, to fix what you've done? Is it too
late to hope that in the end, I have won. I have tried,
and I've cried - and scars mark the battle lost - but my
battle is a new one, and it's coming with a cost.

Like sending a boat to a river, it floats for a while but
the wood wears thinner, it cracks and it floods and it sinks
deep beneath, I'm stranded. Hypothetical island, and nothing to eat.